The highway stretched out in front of me for what seemed like forever but I was living life one mile at a time. I remember that the moon was full and the sky was clear. Mile after mile went by and there was no sign of another car in any direction. I pulled into the rest area and realized that I was alone and in the distance we heard the howl of a lone coyote. At that moment it hit me, I was free. There was nothing left for me back there and I had my entire life ahead of me, wherever that might be. I lit a cigarette and then grabbed a beer out of the bed of my truck and wandered out into the desert. It felt good to be out here all alone. Something told me that I should go back and lock the car but there was no sign of anyone else around and when I gazed out into the distance I didn’t see any headlights approaching. Good enough for me. On a night like this I knew that nothing bad could happen to me, I was untouchable. Remember what Dostoyevsky said, “The secret of man’s being is not only to live but to have something to live for.”
Jan 302010
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